Chaos In the Mind of an Overthinker
In words of writer W.V Draanen, ‘If chaos is a necessary step in the organization of one’s universe, then I was well on my way.’
It starts with the possession of a constant state of restlessness, tension, and incessant dissatisfaction. The battle is to survive and thrive. So you start to justify.
The chaos theory suggests, very small changes in the starting position of a chaotic system can probably make a big difference after a while.
You are in a head of an over thinker. Ruminating about the past and worrying about the future.
Conspiracies, myths, and ancient civilizations suggest humankind cannot bear too much of reality. Could that be where the truth lies? Because all I do is observe, think, and overanalyze.
Finding meaning in everything.
Like, in chaos there is fertility, although contemplation of the complexity makes me wonder otherwise.
Knowledge is Power, by and by, in Ignorance the bliss lies. Perhaps rules change in conformity to where need resides.
These intrusive thoughts ‘break’ into the experience without my desire for them to be there.”
Pondering over contradictory thoughts drives me crazy with this fruitless exercise. The hedonic treadmill continues to exist.
“Overthinking Burns Bridges”, I’m aware so when I sit around you , I retract my conscious to display only to later find solitude to replay